Confuddled

Following on with my last post, I still have no answers. I’ve been praying about it and yet there seems no light bulb that magically turns on or a beatific smile that manages to creep across my face. No, no enlightenment or epiphany.

It continues to nag in my mind. Every time I go to watch a movie, buy a bar of chocolate, buy some books… There’s a question, “Is this how you glorify God?”

Some have argued that God doesn’t want us to be puritanical (Well, not in the sense of ruling out all forms of enjoyment). They say that he does want us to enjoy ourselves, just within our means, for that is good stewardship. But then, the voice still nags, “But is that really good stewardship?”

That’s why, it seems most logical and fool-proof (and actually easier than spending your entire life worrying if you are spending your money well) to renounce all things and follow Christ. He definitely knew what He was talking about when He said that it is easier for a camel to go through an eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.

When Mr. Tan wrote that I would be going against the materialistic mentality in Singapore by going into NGO work, I don’t think he expected me to take it to such an extreme.