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It’s rather warm here and am in a holiday home in Kent now. Just returned from lunch and a 5 mile walk. I know, Rebecca the hater of the 2.4 went on a 5 mile walk! Haha. Sitting here in shorts now. Thankfully it seems that the rain will hold off till Monday. I’m now browner than I was in Singapore. Heh.
Since I’ve been in this country, I’ve realised how glad I am not to be coming here. There’s been a surge of youth knife-crime here and a general decline of moral standards.
But of course, there is always that part of me that will wonder what could have been.
I don’t care what everyone says, I hate staying here. I missed JOHN and now I’m stuck here for another 3 weeks in this place where nothing happens.
It’s like being stuck in a cage. BAH.
So I’m here online but not many people are, which is sorta lonely.
I do suppose that I’ve been enjoying myself, going down to Leonardslee and all.
There’s a crying toddler just a couple of metres from where I’m sitting. Babies shouldn’t be brought into the library unless they can keep quiet. Ergh. Ok, I know, I should be nice to them, ‘cos I was one a while ago and I may have one myself one day. Dadeedadeeda.
I’m supposed to be doing research on the Israeli Palestinian Conflict for the upcoming ACJCs. Why do they have to be as stupid as to pick such a topic for the debates? Ergh ergh ergh.
I shouldn’t be grumpy. I know I shouldn’t. I guess it’s just that I’ve been waiting for a reply to my SMSes and I’m not getting any. But I suppose that I should be glad that the camp is fun and keeps one busy.
Aside from that, the weather has been rather brilliant. Had breakfast out in the garden on Thursday and there isn’t a cloud in the sky now.
I keep rambling, because there’s nothing else for me to do. No one to talk to and it just gets a tad lonely.
Hi all.
I’m leaving for the UK tomorrow morning and will be back on the 3rd of July.
Email or facebook me if you need to.
Byebye.
I will update.
I have been witness to multiple rejections this week; witness also to the dreams dashed and the tears. Some were rejected by universities, some by loved ones, some by ones they love. There have been various reactions, some have reacted in anger, refusing to believe the outcome; some with cynicism and some with pure, unadulterated pain. Well, I think you all know which reaction affects me the most.
Through all this time, I’ve wondered “why?” Why are we allowed to be hurt? Why do we come away broken? Why do we tear each other down?
And I think of Daryl’s recent post. The key to the end of suffering is not to simply wipe out our desires, but know that in all things, whether we’re seeking love, education, prestige, acceptance and so on, that we were made by God and for God. Perhaps we get hurt because, like trying to jam a puzzle piece in the wrong place, we are trying to fill this “God-shaped hole” with things that simply do not and will not suffice.
We, in our fallen human selves, are The Insatiables. We are as Ecclesiastes 4 writes, “There was a man all alone; he had neither son nor brother. There was no end to his toil, yet his eyes were not content with his wealth.”
Paul had the answer to our question. He wrote in Philippians, “I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.” His answer lay in the next sentence, “I can do all things through him who gives me strength”. It is only in Christ where we learn to place our insatiable selves upon the altar and look for something that gives lasting contentment and fulfillment.
As St. Augustine wrote, “Our hearts are restless until they find rest in Thee.”
And I pray that we’ll all find that rest.
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